Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Silence in Chaos

So these past couple of weeks have been totally chaotic, but very enjoyable.
First off, from home there has been some news developing of my Mom marrying a man she has known all of her life, but they have only started dating since New Years Eve. I really like this man, and he seems to love my Mom, sister and I, but truthfully, I am soo scared..I have not seen my Mother put her heart out on the line like this in a long time..I am soo happy for her, but then again, dont know what to think. My sister and I have been preaching to her the way she always does us when significant others come into our lives, " Mom, dont you think your moving too fast?" but she just laughs ( which she didnt too that often until recently) and says they just click. They pray together, and are extremely happy. I think thats the best part of it all, so i will let them be! haha
Life changes soo fast anymore, at first when you move away, you constantly hear what your parents want you to do, and so you stop making your own decisions until you speak with them and get thier input, but then later down the road, you ask for their opinion and they say its up to you!
We all are making desicions right now, about our futures, and for the first time in my entire life, I have nooo idea what my future is going to bring. It pretty much depends on passing the dreaded Praxis, and going from there...what am i going to do this summer? Where am i going to live then, and next year? Do I want to step out of my comfort zone, and live with someone new next semester? I get scared at times, about making the wrong choice, which I feel like I have done a lot of lately, but then pray, really hard, and feel comforted. I beieve the saying "Everything Happens for a Reason" and I do think that I am at this point for some reason. God wants me to put everything in his hands. I think I can! Lets see where this ends up...:)